Infatuations

Urgles. I swear. I hate hormones.

So you see... you know you get those kind of fluterry feelings in your stomach? When you talk to the person of the opposite sex? Yeah.. well I've been getting them alot lately..
I don't want to like anyone. Because I'm just never sure. I don't know what love is... I've said too much times that I've fallen in love. I don't know anymore... I don't trust my mind or my heart. Because they're not making any sense.
I hate the feeling of attraction. Yeahh, felt it today. Twice actually. It's quite annoying. I ignored it though. Wish it wouldn't come and leave me alone. Grrrrr.

So yeah, I'm gonna leave you all with my last night depressing note.

I've been feeling really hurt by almost everything. I don't understand why I feel so sad of what they say. I promised myself that I wouldn't change for anyone anymore. Some will love me for who I am. I haven't created myself or my character. But, I hate it when things like people preferring others other than me hurt me because it's stupid. I hate it most when I'm being compared. Because I know I won't win. I never do. And because I'm selfish, I want to keep some people to myself. Because now I feel that they're choosing someone that isn't me. I know, I have a bad mind. But I'm scared. I'm scared that my friends won't like me anymore.


Adios!