I was right not to trust "love" right now. I knew it's a far reach. That's why I'm trying to stay in a place where nothing can affect me.
You know how Derek and Seth is going after me? Well, yeah.
I truly believe that both of them would give up by the time we've graduate. And that's the time I'm willing to consider any offers given to me.
And, honestly.. I prefer Seth over Derek. It's funny how many months ago.. it was opposite. I refuse to say the word love [romantic love]. I just don't believe in it appearing in this day and age. I know its there. But it wont come anytime soon.
Well anyways... I'm just waiting for the day Derek does his 'disappearing act' on me. And I'm waiting for Seth to get tired of me.
Turns out... Seth gave up earlier than I expected. And it hurt.
Derek recently told me that he like me and another girl. But it didnt faze me as it once did. So... I know I don't like him as much. But I know there's a percentage there.
Honestly... I knew I was right. I could never trust a boy to say "I'll wait for you". Yes, at the time they're saying it... they mean it. But, they just can't. They'll get tired and bored.
I was truly hoping that they could prove me wrong. But no. They proved me right.
It doesn't matter though. It shouldn't matter. It's not like I was expecting them to surprise me. I was just hoping.
If they give up... at least, life is simpler. I can go back to my non-confusing single happy life and not worry about the crap I'm getting right now. I can focus on my education without any thoughts clouding my mind. I can just wait till I get older... and hope to find a guy who will cherish me and love me. He'll be my perfect match.
Anyways... I NEED TO GET MY PERIOD NOW! *@#U!!I!)*@&@*Q!&&##&&Q(&*!	!!!!
Well everyone... I believe I'm pmsing. But I thought I'd get my period this week. If I get it next week... I'm going to get pissed. I signed up for the school swimming carnival. But if I get my period. No can do for swimming. PLEASE COME TODAY, TOMORROW OR SUNDAY!!!! :@
Byeeeee Everyone. I probably come back to you on Monday --> February 14. Valentine's Day.
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